It is the wee small hours. I am typing this on my phone, so there may be errors.
Fast forward a handful of years.
My SO is fast asleep next to me.
Snoring.
Snoring stupidly loudly.
This is the fourth time this week that I have been woken by heavy snoring activities.
I’ve been lying here trying to analyse what happens when I’m woken up by such awful noise.
I get frustrated.
I get annoyed.
I take it personally.
And finally, after an hour or so, I get really angry.
Say something, you may advise.
Wake up the snorer, you may think.
I do.
I have done both.
My SO gets defensive.
Assumes a mental posture that is borderline combative.
And says things that make me feel selfish.
Because I don’t want to be alone in the bed.
I don’t want them to flounce downstairs in to the cold, to sleep on the settee.
And I don’t want to feel bad about just mentioning that I got three hours sleep, on four different nights this week.
I’m exhausted.
But I don’t know what to do.